我能活出我自己吗？

  

 

 

Do you know?

I escape from reality again, hide myself in my own planet. . .

There are too many matters pressure on me that I am unable to withstand anymore.

Would like to abandon a few of them, but cannot make a decision
Thus I do not know since when,
In every journey, my teardrops unable to control and roll continuously in the eye socket. . .

Every time at work, my sight slowly covered by a layer of tears gradually become blurred. . .

In every night time, my tears slowly flow off and wet the pillow. . .

In nobody corner, my tears will pour out of wept like a child. . .

I really do not want to be in such situation. . .  I really do not want. . .

Am I too persistent, stubborn and always go to a dead end?
Am I worried too much?

Perhaps I do not trust other people, or I do not have self-confidence at all
Perhaps I am too indecisive, considering too much that unable to make up my mind,
Now only ends up with a situation where lead to the former road of no return.


Do you know?

This time, I'm really very bothersome, very annoying, the mood has already fallen to the valley.

Once more, I inexplicably fall into that melancholy abyss, and unable to extricate myself.

Not that I never attempt with the aid of the positive thought and strength to overcome that sadness,
trying to pull myself out of this difficult hopeless situation.

However, it does not help at all, instead let me
Feel the pain becoming more and more unbearable each time,
Bog down even deeper and deeper each time.

No matter how much I strive to inspire myself, comfort myself,
I still unable to walk out of the labyrinth which I have created myself.

I am really lost. . . Like the timid child feeling so helpless . . .

I almost about to crumble. . . The chest is unable to breathe in the stabbing pain. . .

I have no energy to do anything. . . Just want to hide in the dark groomy corner. . .

I start to give up everything in despair. . .Even want to give up my life. . .


Please guide me, how should I walk out of myself?