Is this a silent protest? I do not know.
Have I said something wrong? I do not know.
Have I said something that I should not say? I do not know.
Have I said something that makes you angry? I do not know.
I have given it a deep thought for a while. . .
I really do not know. . .
If I really have said something that hurts you,
I apologize to you. You know I don't mean it.
All I know is, I have said out.
All I know is, with the courage, I have said out.
All I know is, what my heart wants to say, I have said out.
If I know that I have said something that has messed up everything,
I'd rather not to have that sense of courage.
If I know that I have said something that has created more pain,
I'd rather not to have said anything.
If I know that I have said something that has offended you,
I'd rather bury those words deep inside my heart forever.
As most important,
I do not wish to cause any harm to you. . . not even the slightest harm.
"Sorry, please forgive me."
Have I said something wrong? I do not know.
Have I said something that I should not say? I do not know.
Have I said something that makes you angry? I do not know.
I have given it a deep thought for a while. . .
I really do not know. . .
If I really have said something that hurts you,
I apologize to you. You know I don't mean it.
All I know is, I have said out.
All I know is, with the courage, I have said out.
All I know is, what my heart wants to say, I have said out.
If I know that I have said something that has messed up everything,
I'd rather not to have that sense of courage.
If I know that I have said something that has created more pain,
I'd rather not to have said anything.
If I know that I have said something that has offended you,
I'd rather bury those words deep inside my heart forever.
As most important,
I do not wish to cause any harm to you. . . not even the slightest harm.
"Sorry, please forgive me."
That doesn't do any harm - but if we don't, we do ourselves harm.
ReplyDeleteSometimes the truth hurts, but it never harms.
It hurts me ...
ReplyDeleteI hate myself for always being too direct, thus others easily get offended.
For this particular case, I really don't know what has gone wrong. It is like I have been sentenced to a "sudden silent" death without knowing why or having any chance to explain.
Perhaps I am too selfish to pour my sorrow out without considering from others' points of view.
Or perhaps some conflicts and disagreement with my opinions.
If she has decided to look down on me, I won't blame her but accept it, as I know that my past is totally a mess which may not be accepted by anyone at all.
I only hope that it won't cause any misery or harm to anyone.
Dear sweet Dreamz,
ReplyDeleteWe're all responsible for our own feelings. If you say something that hurts me, it's because I have given you power to "make" me feel bad. If I blame you, I won't grow. If I take a good look at my own part in it, I will grow. My choice.
In this particular case, your friend has decided to project the blame on you. And/or she's afraid of you because you reflect a part of herself that she won't accept. Her choice. Not your responsibility.
Your past is nobody's business. You did what you thought was right at the time, or you did what you thought you had to do, or you thought you couldn't help it. You do not have the duty to act on experience you haven't got yet.
You're not selfish enough!
ReplyDeletemost importantly, do not do any harm to yourself!
ReplyDeleteI don't see how sorrow can offend anybody, let alone do harm, but some people are afraid of seeing/hearing it expressed because they have repressed their own sorrow. Then they run away. IT IS NOT YOUR FAULT!
ReplyDeleteDearest Dreamz... Never, never hate yourself. That is the source of all unhappiness. If you think you have done or said something wrong just apologize and that's it. Whether the other person wanna accept it or not it's entirely up to her/him. If that person is a true friend, I'm sure everything will work out well. Please don't let this affect your life so much. Trust me, it will pass. Most importantly, be happy Dreamz. If this saddens you, find something or someone who'll make you happy. It's not healthy physically and emotionally for you to be sad for so long.
ReplyDeletePlease take good care and think happy thoughts, Dreamz. Big hugssss!!
It is ok, never mind. She is a wonderful friend, she has been giving me a lot of encouragement and support during my down time, which she is not obliged to do so.and I really appreciate and thank her very much.
ReplyDeleteIt is me who keep having pouring negative thoughts on her which is unhealthy to continue and need to be left alone to cool down.
Dreamz - some people are guilt-givers. You are a guilt-taker - and that's not at all better. It's the same unbalance.
ReplyDeleteWhen you have a good friend in your life, it's as much due to you as to her. If there's a misunderstanding, it's also due to her as much as to you. It takes two to tango. Can you please stop transferring all the blame and shame and CRAP from all the others to yourself!
Dreamz - some people are guilt-givers. You are a guilt-taker - and that's not at all better. It's the same unbalance.
ReplyDeleteWhen you have a good friend in your life, it's as much due to you as to her. If there's a misunderstanding, it's also due to her as much as to you. It takes two to tango. Can you please stop transferring all the blame and shame and CRAP from all the others to yourself!
hei buddy, I sometime also did something that's "too direct" that caused the silentness between the people involve.
ReplyDeleteyeah, try to appologize in advance, may be solving the problem bro :)