Why?
Why do I work?
Why do I need to work?
Why do I need to work so hard?
Why do I need to work so hard and make myself so busy and unhappy?
Why?
Why should I spend more than one third of my precious limited 24 hours doing the job that does not give me the fulfillment, enjoyment and achievement feelings anymore?
I don't like to play politics in company, I won't do any sweet talk to anyone.
Please don't always blame on others and jealous of female colleagues, it is not that I am good, but more of you should upgrade and improve yourselves to take up the challenge.
I am not interested at all. If you want anything, just take it. I won't be bothered.
I have been struggling for past few months and just started to walk out from the misery, I really don't wish to be beaten by it so fast.
I just want to live a simple life, having more time on my own doing the things that I really like reading, drawing, listening to music.
You may think that I am crazy, but I just can't help it.
Is it true that when one is unhappy, stressed or depressed, he/she tends to spend money buying thing that he/she likes to release the stress and unhappiness?
Following are some books that I have bought within last 5 months, and have read quarter of them.
These few days I started to buy again ...
Great collection you have there, Dreamz... You will get what you want when you start thinking more of what you want instead of what you don't want, Dreamz. Be grateful with what you have, instead of fuming of what you don't have... Believe me, it will make you much happier.
ReplyDeleteHave a wonderful day, my friend. Big hugs!
Sometimes, my dear, we don't have to do what we think we have to do - it's just convention, other people's expectances. I hope you'll find the courage to break free soon.
ReplyDeleteAnd don't even think of "being grateful" for a job that makes you unhappy!
it appears obvious, - you need a break, a vacation.
ReplyDeletea sabbatical leave of absence might be in order.
a need for time to reflect and to go within yourself to regain strength and self-confidence
and focus on the importance and essence of life.
I don't know your private circumstances.
nonetheless, - DO IT!
Thanks ruzie. Thanks for the hugs.
ReplyDeleteyes, for these few years, I am grateful with what I have, and won't cry over what I don't have. If I am still alive, I still target that once I have set aside a sum of money for my boy's education, or by age of 55 years old, which ever comes first, I will stop working, retire, and devote my time to charity work.
Thanks for the encouragement, ulla.
ReplyDeleteI don't know whether I am deceiving myself or I am really ready and capable of moving on.
I really feeling very unhappy with the job, the management and the policy, and hope to get out of this bad situation as soon as possible, as it starts to creating the rippling effect and pull me back to a situation like 4 months ago again.
Probably,after reading so many books still no effect, then I really need your canadian friend's help in healing.
hi Winandh,
ReplyDeleteyes, I really wish that I could have a long long break to re-analyse and re-focus what is really essential and important to me, but...I just can't afford to take the risk in such current crisis situation.
Books don't help unless they really teach you an easy method - and some of them suggest methods that are downright harmful. Positive thinking, for instance, enforces your denials.
ReplyDeleteI'll ask my friend what she needs from you by way of information.
When, may I ask, are you planning to devote your time to a sweet woman named Dreamz? When you're 85?
ReplyDeleteHei Dear Dreamz
ReplyDeleteBIG H U G!
A whole lotta text in them books...
My advice would be to concentrate in just one of them and follow the guidance there.
Too many advisers will only add to the confusion, methinks.
Have a really really grand weekend.