I had always been troubled by many things on and off, very easily feeling moody and upset. I told myself that I need to have a change in my life, question is just when and how? After some encouragement from M (Thanks M), going through many attempts and overcoming numerous hesitations, last week, I managed to overcome the "obstacle" and made a step forward, I attended a church service, which I have been hesitating to go, not because of the church but more of I am afraid of facing the people. Thus it was a brand new experience and a mixture of feelings, peaceful, lonely, motivating, like a kid who wants to know more but feeling scared, ...
This morning was my second time to the church, reached there by 11:20am, just feeling a bit lonely and odd, like out of the place, as nobody I know...(however probably it was my fault, as myself wouldn't believe, God really did give me a chance this morning when I had been led me to an "ideal" seat, but I was a coward and changed to another seat.)
I started to wonder:~ Am I really ready to face the people or should I still stay at home confine to myself? Am I doing the right thing? Well, next week I will be going again, hopefully will be feeling better.
After the service, I checked out some information regarding New Believer Class however the registration already closed for this round. 1.15pm I took the free shuttle bus service to the Subway station.
I got to know about this song "I Could Sing Of Your Love Forever" from the church service last week, feeling touched when singing along.
I Could Sing Of Your Love Forever
Written by Martin Smith 1994 Curious? Music UK
Sung by Delirious?
Over the mountains and the sea,
Your river runs with love for me,
and I will open up my heart
and let the Healer set me free.
I'm happy to be in the truth,
and I will daily lift my hands:
for I will always sing of when
Your love came down.
[Yeah!]
I could sing of Your love forever,
I could sing of Your love forever,
I could sing of Your love forever,
I could sing of Your love forever.
[Repeat]
Oh, I feel like dancing -
it's foolishness I know;but,
when the world has seen the light,
they will dance with joy,
like we're dancing now.
I'm not sure I'm getting this, Dreamz. Are you afraid of all people? I mean, you work, you travel, you shop for pleasure - ??. Or is there anything particularly scary about this congregation?
ReplyDeleteyeah, - from where does this phobia stem?
ReplyDeleteI think it is purely my character, timid and shy, and lack of self-confidence, nothing to do with that congregation.
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